When I was 25, I was working for a company that I absolutely hated. I needed inspiration to do anything, I would set up 4 alarms before actually getting out of bed. One would be at 4:00am, then at 5:00am, then at 5.30am and finally at 6.00am. The first three weren’t for me to wake up, but for me to wake up for a second and be grateful that I still had a lot of time left before I had to wake up and go to the horrible job. Then at 6:00am, I would eventually get out of bed, not to jump into the shower but to go for my morning jog because I still needed another 30minutes to psyche myself up for the job. Sunday afternoon was my most horrible time so you would often find me in bed, because it used to make me sick to the stomach that Monday was coming. Then one day, a life changing event happened to me, I went home and wrote down the things I would do if I only had 3 months to live. And my list went like this:
- Quit my job
- Buy a sewing a machine and start designing clothes (I was 25)
- Go for karate lessons
- Be an HIV aids activist
The next day, I realised I didn’t have a 3 months to live problem. I went back to work and life continued as usual and then it came to me, did I need a “3 months to live problem” to actually live the way I wanted. And in that moment, I wrote my resignation letter and took it to the MD, he read and asked if I wanted more pay, I told him no, he asked me how was I going to survive without a monthly income, I told him I was going to be fine. I had accummulated days, so I gave them 2 weeks notice and on the day that I left, was one of the best days of my life to date and that was 13 years ago. I had a bounce in my step, I felt light. I bought a sewing machine, I joined a karate club and became an HIV AIDS activist.
Yes, eventually, I went back to work in South Africa because apparently, I am not that good a designer as I thought at the age of 25. Eventually, the karate lessons stopped and I lost the zeal for HIV activism. And all this is because I am human and I evolve but the one thing that I have lived true to, is that I will never take a back sit in the way my life goes, I choose to take the front seat always. One of my favourite songs is called I hope you dance by Leanne Wommack, some of the lyrics are;
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance… I hope you dance…
It is a Friday and I have a long day to go and as the day goes, I am going to stay true to my purpose, pursue my passions and dance.
The question is, are you taking a back seat in your life? Are you living true to you? What role are you playing in your life?
Are you dancing?
Have a good day.